So I recently have discovered I have a crush. I haven’t had a real crush in like a looooong time. Like a real crush where whenever I think about him I smile and when he calls me by a nickname it makes my heart skip a beat. Sounds great, right? Well there are a few problems.
I play this video game called Guild Wars 2 and I’m in an awesome guild. A guild for those of you who don’t know is basically a group of people who can game together and get to know each other and share similar values and goals (usually). Some of us use this program called Teamspeak, which allows you to talk to each other while gaming so you don’t have to type everything out.
So there’s problem one. I haven’t seen him, I’ve only heard him. People may think it’s crazy to like someone who I haven’t even seen. At least I’ve heard him so I know who I’m talking to.
Problem two: he lives in another state. Now I’m all down for some long distance loving as long as both people can trust each other and try to make it work. I just don’t know if he feels that way as well.
Problem three is kind of based off of that last statement. I don’t know if he feels the same way about me, like at all. Granted, I’ll admit he likes me enough to joke around and have a nickname for me, but is it anything more than that?
But I’ve realized something while thinking about this whole situation and while writing this. I’ve been overthinking and over analyzing everything. I think about how he won’t like me, how it won’t work, am I being too much, etc. I’m not just enjoying it. I realized that, at least for me, crushes aren’t an everyday occurrence. I need to just roll with it and if nothing happens, then nothing happens. At least I was able to care more about someone else than what I usually do. We need more love in this world anyways. *note I do not love him, I just like him for the time being :P So I’m just going to enjoy liking him, laughing with him, joking with him, and calling him nicknames, because I don’t know how long I have, or how long it will be before it happens again, so I’m going to enjoy it all. Plus I’m usually happier when I’m not overthinking everything.
This rant is long enough, and most people might not read it, but some of you might and you might enjoy it. If anyone does read this and you only pick out one thing from this mess it would be to just enjoy life and enjoy the crushes and the little things. Life can be a hard and long journey. I’m just taking my sweet time smelling the roses on the way :)
Make it a great day!